We watched Divergent this past weekend, and I realized something.
The last thing I need in my life is to have my thoughts broadcast, in real time, on huge video screens, for public viewing.
No. Nope. No way. No thank you.
I know what I’m thinking most of the time, but sometimes my own thoughts even surprise me. I think a lot of things in the course of a minute, and if what I’m thinking at any given moment throws me for a loop, I’m positive that thought doesn’t need to be in the public sphere.
And I’m not sure how most of my thoughts could even be broadcast. I don’t think in pictures. I often will have visualizations, but more often however, I’m just cognizant of any number of ideas firing off at any given time.
In discussing this with my husband, he has revealed to me that apparently it is normal to visualize thoughts. I’m not there. I can and do visualize, as I said, but honestly, when I’m thinking about things, I don’t see them. I can feel them and hear them. I can experience emotions. But seeing things? That’s certainly not my first response. Or my second or third even.
As our conversation continued, I realized that I’ll go more quickly to visualization if the idea is something I’ve seen repeatedly – like a movie I love, for example. Even when I’m reading novels, which is one of my favorite pastimes, I don’t see what the authors describe. I feel it. I experience it. I hear it. I wrap my own emotions into the emotions of the characters. But see it? Not usually.
Apparently I’m outside of the norm. Well, what else is new?
I wonder what would show up in the screens in if my thoughts were to be broadcast.
Hmm. Let’s not find out.