I spend a lot of my energy trying to be content.
I devote a substantial amount of my prayer life to Philippians 4:11b-13, because I desire to honestly say, “I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know both how to have a little, and I know how to have a lot. In any and all circumstances I have learned the secret of being content—whether well fed or hungry, whether in abundance or in need. I am able to do all things through Him who strengthens me.”
I want to be content with who I am and who I’m not. I want to be content with what I have and with what I don’t. I want to be content with where I am and where I’m not.
I try to be grateful for who God me and for each moment He has given me. I long to make the best of wherever and whenever I happen to be.
Some days I’m successful.
Some days I’m not.
Sometimes my success modulates by the minute.
But even when I falter, I’m reminded that I can, in fact, do all things through Christ who strengthens. Which means I can, in fact, learn to be content in any circumstance.
As I’m learning to be content (and as I’m learning so many other lessons as well), I’m learning that my weakness is the perfect platform for God’s strength. I need my weakness, so I can see God’s strength.
And the more I experience His strength, the more I realize I’m weak without Him. I can’t do anything without Him. It’s in Him that I live, move, and exist.
The more I learn to be content, the more I recognize there is one area in which I will never find contentment. Seeking Him. Needing Him. Reading His Word. Loving Him.
When it comes to Him, I can never get enough.